This bloody blog...
Once again I return to this now claustrophobic House of Tequila, after a prolonged period of absence. For some bloody reason writing an entry these days feels like garroting my own teeth off with some rusty piano wire. I have lots to say, as much has happened since my last proper personal entry, but somehow I feel the need close down this blog and start again afresh
I think that reflects quite nicely as to how my life feels right now. I have changed my lifestyle (especially my working life) quite dramatically lately, and am busying myself with all manner of plans and resolutions I'll no doubt change or break in the near (and if I'm honest with myself, unplanned) future.
I've been living for the moment for so long, I don't even remember when I started living for the moment! I've made ridiculous decisions, having decided I didn't want to tie myself down to anything (or anyone!) and now find myself tied down to this inability to take real chances. I'm stuck in a vicious circle, and very soon will have to do something to break it, else I know I will end up very much alone (not counting the 50 cats I'll own).
To be fair I've known this for some time. It's just that I used to think that we're ALL really alone, even when we get on and co-habit etc etc. Now I just feel like there's got to be more to life than this!
In other words, I think ReeferMadness may be getting ready to settle down!! I predict my biological clock will go nuclear some time in the near future, and no doubt I'll have this craving to go forth and multiply!
Oh dear...
Having just read this entry, it sounds quite downbeat. I want to make sure everyone knows I am in a happy place, it's just quite confusing knowing where to go from here!
Lock up your daughters, that may be a good start...
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(16.7.05 17:12) Kylo doesn't know I'm writing this but I know she'd be interested in getting together with you. Longterm. As you can see, she has a lovely figure and, at age 12 in human years, a little premature greying which suits her, I think. Her interests include running on the beach, chasing balls and sticks, and eating almost anything. She's not able to procreate but is open to adoption.
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(16.8.05 12:55) Ah well, that is the thing, as much as I would like to one day adopt, I'm heartbroken to hear Kylo will never bear our potentialy beautiful (eye of the beholder and all that) children. Sorry Kylo, looks like our relationship was doomed before it was given a chance! Does Spaz have any sisters?... |
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(21.8.05 01:59) No but I'd love to have her cloned... |